You're here because you want  more love, fulfilment and joy!  

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You want to answer the big question, "who am I",  because somewhere along the way you got lost.   

 

Your life so far has brought you to this place of questioning and searching. It's a normal process when life begins to change.  There are many things that can contribute to this feeling such as your children have moved out, you are recently divorced or ready for divorce and can't find the courage to leave, have been made redundant, or you are experiencing any other event that has totally derailed your life. You may be feeling like you don't know where you fit in anymore, what your purpose or role in life is.  You know something needs to change but you're not sure what or even how to change. The future may seem uncertain. You want to move forward but you feel stuck with no options, or like you are invisible and have no purpose or direction. I know this feeling well. 

 

Turning 50 can feel like being hit with a sledge hammer. 

 

There's a sudden realization that you are halfway through your life and the next big birthday is 60. I remember feeling so much regret for the things I hadn't done yet, for the life I wanted but hadn't created. I remember thinking, what's it going to be like on the downhill slide of life. I had so much fear about the future.  Who am I now that I'm 50?  What can I do now with time passing me by? My best years are behind me now so what is left? I lost all my confidence. I felt a bit hopeless to be honest.  So many things swirled around in my head. I felt lost, I looked older, my energy level was low, my son no longer needed me in the same way,  When I looked at myself in the mirror I didn't like the person staring back at me. I didn't even recognize the person staring back at me.​